Happy New Year!! At least, I hope. I just created a new page for Mom, I'm noticing subtle lapse in memory of things she does on a regular basis, but now seems to be forgetting. I'm hoping these are just isolated cases, but we shall see.
On another note, both Mom and I can't seem to shake these colds of ours. It's like we keep passing it back and forth to each other. Been well over two months now, so tired.
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As we come to a close for 2022, all I can hope for as I approach 60, is that things get WAY better than they were for my 50's. 50's SUCKED BIG TIME!!!!! The worst 10 years of my life EVER! And to add insult to injury, I go out of '22 with 6 weeks of pneumonia this month. Goodbye to 50's, hello to 60's. Please be good to me.
Major changes coming to how I do my work at work. I realize now, I was doing things all wrong. What I thought was in my best interest was really hurting me physically. Coming home feeling like I was aging at a high rate. Body aching like I was going to die tomorrow. Whole new outlook on all of that. Better updates hopefully to come.
Well, it all makes sense now. All this time I was wondering why my health had taken a sudden turn after reaching age 50. After reading an article titled "Signs your brain is aging faster than you are", I realized I'm in the early stages of Dementia. Fitting that just a few months ago, I had a dream that I had it. First thought that came to my mind while I was reading the information about Dementia, was how Robin Williams felt when he realized he had issues about his mental health. So now comes the realization that I have little time left. Although I have not been officially diagnosed, you just know when things are what they are.
Monday the 5th, I was awakened again with the thought of me dying, but this time it seemed so real and freighting.
So twice this month I've been awaken by dreams of my death. They weren't violent in nature, or bizarre in any way, just me dying.
Wednesday the 20th of this month, had a strange beginning to work. I started feeling euphoric, light-headed, not really bad, but it was noticeable. I thought maybe the feeling would go away, so I went ahead and went to work. During the start of work, the feelings continued, but didn't interfere with my duties at work, until later that night. The feelings started to get worse to the point I was concerned about getting on the equipment I drive. I didn't want to risk my safety or that of others, so I decided to go home approximately 90 minutes early. After getting home, I did my usual bathe, eat and bed routine, and when I woke up, everything seemed to be normal.
Friday morning the 22nd of this month, I got home from work, and that euphoric feeling hit me like a brick, just as I was trying to get out of the car. Prior to Wednesday, things were going fine, but now, I couldn't even walk to the front door of the house. I tried desperately, but by the time I made it to the grassy area, there was no longer any bushes or other cars to hold on to. Jackie the neighbor just happened to be out walking her dog Kevin and noticed my unstable walking abilities. She asked me if she could help, and I told her, "Yes, please, I seem to have lost my ability to walk." This was the first time in my life I felt really old and dependent. I had to assemble the chair for the shower in order to fulfill my routine. After wakening, the rest of that week until now (7/27) has been fine, not sure what brought that on. My elbow pain seems to have gone, thanks to the medicine the doctor prescribed. My hearing has returned to about 60% good, we'll see how long that lasts. About three weeks ago, hearing in my left ear has lost about 80 percent, and is still gone. Also, my left elbow is giving me trouble with sharp pain when I lean on it. The pangs of aging.
'World War III has begun', says Kremlin state media after sinking of Russian warship Moskva4/15/2022 A Russian state television media Friday declared that World War III has already started after the sinking of its naval vessel Moskva in the Ukraine war. Moscow warned Friday it would step up missile attacks on Kyiv in response to what it said were sorties across the border, the day after its Black Sea naval flagship sank. Olga Skabeyeva, one of Putin's top media figures in the tightly controlled state-run Russian media, bizarrely claimed that the war in Ukraine had escalated into a war against Nato. "What it’s escalated into can safely be called World War Three. That’s entirely for sure. Now we are definitely fighting against NATO infrastructure, if not NATO itself. We need to recognise that," she said in the broadcast here that was also widely shared on the social media platform Twitter. Another anchor Olesya Loseva, the host of Vremya Pokazhet, reportedly told viewers that the West was now supplying 'zillions of weapons' to Ukraine.
The explosions were reported to have been heard after the Russian defence ministry announced that the Moskva, the flagship of Russia's Black Sea Fleet, had sunk while being towed after being badly damaged. While Russia's defence ministry spoke only of a fire breaking out and of exploding ammunition, Ukraine claimed it hit the Moskva with anti-ship cruise missiles and that these sparked the fire that detonated the ammunition. Earlier in the day, the Russian Defence Ministry Friday claimed it had struck a military target on the edge of Kyiv overnight with cruise missiles and promised more strikes against the Ukrainian capital in response to Ukrainian attacks on Russian targets. The ministry further informed that the Russian forces had also taken full control of the Ilyich Steel Plant, Ukraine’s second-largest steelmaker, in the besieged port city of Mariupol. The defence ministry also claimed to have struck the 'Vizar' factory on the edge of the Ukrainian capital in its overnight missile strikes on Kyiv which it said made and repaired missiles, including anti-ship missiles. 'World War III has begun', says Kremlin state media after sinking of Russian warship Moskva (msn.com) Well, not much to report. I got my two Pfizer vaccine shots on 4/5 and 4/26. I also got my Shingles vaccine shot on 5/3 and need to get my second shingles vaccine shot on the 7th of this month.
one thing I did notice, was last week on Saturday, I was feeling really strange. Sort of dizzy and my hearing in my left ear got really bad again. I ate and went to bed. Later when I woke up, I felt better, but my hearing never improved, it just stayed gone. Like more then 50% of of my hearing in my left ear is gone. Before this, my hearing loss was at about 25% loss, and I was able to deal with it, but now it's really getting bad. Not sure how this much loss is going to affect my ability to do my job effectively. I did okay Saturday, health wise, but then on Sunday, I went to go pick up Mom from Sisters. She had spent nearly two weeks there. For some reason, I did fine until I got to Sisters house, and then my health turned for the worse again. I began getting really dizzy and also a bit nauseous. We stopped at a Wendy's to get lunch. Perhaps this would calm my situation down a bit. It did. I was glad to be home again. The rest of Sunday went fine, I took a nap, then woke to fire works and gun shots going off. Happy 4th of July. I woke Monday morning with no physical abnormalities, but my hearing is still gone. At this point in time, I'm sure it probably will not return. We'll see. |